Anyone who knows me at all knows that patience is not my forte. In fact, the lack of patience is one of my biggest challenges. So you can probably imagine how I'm feeling about being nearly a week overdue to give birth. Going crazy! Unfortunately, since I had a C-section last time, I can't be induced. I don't want another C-section either. Mostly because it was so painful and the recovery was so long past time. But also, I want to go into labor and go through the whole process and see what it's like. I want to tell Evan, "It's time!" and show up at the hospital in a fluster. I'd like to be able to see the birth process instead of being removed behind a curtain and hold my baby right away. And other things.
So the hardest part about all this waiting is that in the end, I may not get what I want anyway. Yes, what I really want the most is a healthy baby and healthy mom, but still. This is like waiting all season for the Super Bowl, but it may not ever come. And it's frustrating that if I'm gong to end up with a c/s, I could have gotten the whole thing done two weeks ago. Sigh!
I meet with my doc tomorrow to decide how to proceed. Please send your good vibes/prayers my way. :)